A nail is driven out by another nail; habit is overcome by habit. Erasmus
I did our taxes this week. It was a bit of a blow. We knew we’d owe money this year but it was significantly more than we expected. Without going into the boring details the reason we owe a lot of taxes this year is due to a series of decisions that also enabled us to buy our current house.
I’ve been working on the habit of gratitude. But after seeing the tax bill facing us I fell back into some old habits. The habit of doubt. Was buying the house really the right thing? The habit of worry. What if there is an emergency and we don’t have the money because we paid the taxes? The habit of negativity. It’s just not fair.
So I forced myself to pick up a pen and drive in a different nail. I told myself to write down ten things about this house I love and am thankful for. By the time I’d written #201-212 below I felt a little of the doubt and worry and negativity being replaced by trust and faith and peace.
Gratitude is a discipline. It’s not always natural or easy. But it comes easier with practice.
190) First blooms of forsythia
191) Light in the sky at 5 am
192) Presidential flags proudly displayed
193) Putting one foot in front of the other
194) Beauty of a fallen dead branch
195) Sidewalk chalk pictures
196) Clouds moving across the moon
197) A very clean house (not cleaned my me)
198) Leslie Sansone
199) Beautiful pink tulips
200) Brothers and sisters who most of the time play together beautifully
201) The bike trail
202) A great back yard
203) Living close to friends
204) More space
205) A layout that works great for kids
206) Our own bathroom
207) Places to walk
208) Huge windows that let in lots of light
209) Lots of trees
210) A fireplace
211) Money in savings to pay our taxes
212) Being clothed like the lilies of the field and fed like the birds of the air
214) Watching the boys watch the squirrels at our bird feeder
217) Teaching John to pump on the swings
218) Homemade salsa